The most difficult phase of life isn’t when no one understands you,
It is when you don’t understand yourself.
It is when you run out of excuses to give for every single mistake you make.
It is when you realize you’re the reason behind all your problems.
At some point we all reach this stage and some take it harder than the other.
Every time I faced some problem I’d find a way to blame someone or the people around for it.
I realized that in every relationship I was in, if we didn’t argue, I’d find a reason to create one,
Sometimes, it felt like if I wasn’t sad, angry or frustrated I wouldn’t function right,
Actually, if I wasn’t sad I’d find a reason to be, because I felt comfortable being that way.
When did I become such a loner?
Was it because I pushed everyone away with my filthy attitude & shady mood swings?
What happened to that cool, calm kid that used to love life?
How did I get here? When did things get this bad?
I find it hard to comprehend the thoughts of my life at this moment,
I can’t seem to understand how things got this bad,
Where did I go wrong? How come nothing seems to be going right?

The most difficult phase of life isn’t when no one understands you,
It is when you realize you’ve been worrying about the wrong things,
For the longest time, all I cared about was building a reputation,
Meanwhile what I should have really cared about was building my character,
My mother did instill some values into me, but as I grew older they all disappeared.

Now, I’m going to begin the journey to get rid of my difficult phases and make the necessary changes and bring back all those lost values and go back to doing the things that made me happy in the past.

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