It takes time, it doesn’t just happen in a day or two, it takes hard work and persistence. These are the exact words I have to repeat to myself everytime I get frustrated, now I don’t mean getting frustrated over my personal life I mean getting frustrated over my career not going the way I want it to go. It’s been very hard for me to accept the fact that I can’t start living out my dreams just yet and I have no one else but myself to blame for that, because at one point I was doing really good things were going great and i was excelling at everything I laid my hands on, until March 3, 2013 when my mom passed away from that day things went downhill. It’s been a daily struggle getting over her death and its taking a big toll on my work ethic because now I have no one to consult for career advice and I also feel like I’m making the wrong decision most of the time, this is due to lack of confidence which makes it super hard to do anything.
I’ve been told by many to get over it and move on or many also don’t dwell on the past but how do you that when you can’t out do most of your past achievements. Another thing that people say that kills me is do what makes you happy, how am I supposed to do that with so limited resources and sadly, most of my joy came from my mother so now I’m stuck here ; miserable, confused and depressed.I sure hope that one day i’ll learn to let go off the past and also develop the patience it takes to be successful but till then I am going stress a bit, be frustrated from time to time and dwell on the “dang, I used to be the man moments’.