Men never ever want to be sensitive. Men don’t want to cry. We don’t want to feel weak. Check that. We don’t want to actually be weak. Weak men aren’t respected by other men and weak men aren’t respected by women, either. You see a lot of women talk about how they want a sensitive and honest man but when they get man they complain about it. But who cares let me go on ramble about one of my biggest fears…
You know what scares me?, its the fact that people could be together for 20 or even 30 years and awaken to discover they don’t love each other anymore, or they never really loved each other but the other one just stuck it out because he or she felt pity for their spouse. Now this is what scares me. You’d wonder why does this scare me, well it scares me because I don’t want to end up and I don’t think anyone of us ever wants to be alone but its looking a possibility for many people. I recently read a couple of stories about some women who got married to themselves after waiting for Mr Right that never came and ever since then I’ve been thinking about this whole Love thing and this whole Monogamy thing. Like, is their really someone out there for everybody and are some people just brought to the world to be Lone-wolf’s.
During a conversation with a friend, she told me about how I shouldn’t be afraid of being alone that it could sometimes be a good thing but I thought how cold me just being by myself be something good? How could me just getting to know myself more be something good but I repeated that question over again and I realized that it would actually be a great thing, I decided to reduce my drinking ways and various stupid decisions. I realize now more than ever I have to get myself together and figure out what I want, no more taking stupid risks and no more getting people involved in it. I want every man to know that we all need to go through this phase, we all need to figure out what we want before we bring someone else along the ride with us.
There’s many confused men out here and they end up screwing over good women, and then we men end up crying about crazy women. When the truth is Women are crazy, Men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is because men are stupid. So please men everywhere get yourselves together before you go find a woman and make her crazy and ruin her for the man who she was meant to be with.
On my way home on the subway, I heard a couple of teens (probably between the ages 13-15) talking about how much they hated their teachers and how much they disliked school and its beginning to make them dislike their parents for sending them to school everyday. What I got from listening on these kids conversation was that they just wanted an easy way out and that one of them just wanted to watch TV all and the others wanted to be famous, it is sad to say but I feel like this is how manjority of kids in this generation.
One thing I have learnt about life and hardwork within the short time i’ve been on this earth is that “It’s a question of attitude. If you really work at something you can do it up to a point. If you really work at being happy you can do it up to a point. But anything more than that you can’t. Anything more than that is luck” . Now after saying this, I can relate to those kids because I had dropped out of college at some point and I also never wanted to go back but I saw my chances without an education are minimal so I went back to school and what I got from my time there was that education sucks and the government is controlled and it is all a sham, but there’s a reason. There’s a reason.
There’s a reason for this, there’s a reason education sucks, and it’s the same reason that it will never, ever, ever be fixed. It’s never gonna get any better. Don’t look for it. Be happy with what you got. Because the owners of this country don’t want that. I’m talking about the real owners now, the real owners, the big wealthy business interests that control things and make all the important decisions. Forget the politicians. The politicians are put there to give you the idea that you have freedom of choice. You don’t. You have no choice. You have owners. They own you. They own everything. They own all the important land. They own and control the corporations. They’ve long since bought and paid for the senate, the congress, the state houses, the city halls, they got the judges in their back pockets and they own all the big media companies so they control just about all of the news and information you get to hear. They got you by the balls. They spend billions of dollars every year lobbying, lobbying, to get what they want. Well, we know what they want. They want more for themselves and less for everybody else, but I’ll tell you what they don’t want: They don’t want a population of citizens capable of critical thinking. They don’t want well informed, well educated people capable of critical thinking. They’re not interested in that. That doesn’t help them. Thats against their interests. Thats right. They don’t want people who are smart enough to sit around a kitchen table to figure out how badly they’re getting fucked by a system that threw them overboard 30 fucking years ago.
I cant be the only one who’s tired of the crappy relationship memes and women who constantly bash men on social media but yet will end up laying with one. If we are that terrible then become lesbian. (Just Kidding).My point is women need to understand that We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different types of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”
So just be patient and trust me at the right time, the right person will come your way. Also realize that what we wait around a lifetime for with one person, we can find in a moment with someone else
I never post any songs on this blog, but I had to do it this time. Here is a single I am much excited for by the one and only Anthony Rison better known as his stage name Rison is a Ghanaian born recording artist, songwriter and performer currently residing in Atlanta, Georgia. He is also working on his mixtape ”By Any Means” and is working on several collaborations for the remix.
He’s been doing this for a while now and I am happy he has put out a single that I can boast about. This is called bedroom bully and its going into my ‘Hmm’ time playlist.
Recently, I’ve been extremely unhappy and doubting myself alot. I have been filled with nothing but negative thoughts and terrible energy and it seems like the same things keep hapepening over and over again. Now, most times when things get this way, I just runaway from everything and everyone but this time around I’ve decided to face my problems and try in several ways to over come them rather than running from them.
These few words below, are the words I say to myself whenever I need change. I hope in them you can find comfort;
In the book of life
I have turned a new page
I am beginning a new chapter
Free of guilt and rage
Part two of my book
Will be refreshingly new
I will let positive thoughts make my day complete
I have decided that I won’t give up, once and for all
Even in tough times, I will stand tall
I’ll keep pushing even if I am tired
I won’t stop until I get what I desire
I’ll keep trying even if I am out of breath,
Nothing will scare me, not even death.
In life, to succeed and to win
First you must fight a battle within
Perseverance is the only thing
That will push you, like a spring
You must keep trying
You must keep pushing
If you want something real bad
Even if you feel tired and sad.
Never give up on the person you love
Never give up on your own life
Never give up on your dreams
Don’t quit in times of strife
Never give up on your wishes
Never give on your career
If you had lost faith earlier on
You wouldn’t have even reached here
I remember when things were great and then they worst and became even horrible but I can’t dwell on that and I now realize God has a plan for me, I just have to be patient and it will come.
For a while now, I always wondered why things never seem to go the way I plan. I thought maybe its because I was such a terrible person or because I was going about things the wrong way, but I had to sit and think wisely and I realized it was actually because I was doing all by myself, I realized it was because I was Mr I don’t need any help. I really did feel like I could do anything and everything without help from anyone but time after time I realized that was a big fat lie, so I reached out to a couple of friends for help and none could do much so I’d even more upset and frustrated, Until one faithful I got a call from an old flame, we hadn’t spoke in quite sometime and she talked to me about how I needed to get closer to God and that was all the help I needed. At that time in my head it sounded crazy because I had given up on religion and God after my mom died but after much of what my friend said I decided to pray and I read the bible; soon afterwards this became a habit and must I say I began to see changes. I honestly felt alot more refreshed and I could say I felt more confident and relaxed, is this God manifesting his will in my life? Or are things just going according to my plans? I had to sit and think of an answer and all I could come up with was this is God’s will manifesting.
Last night, after I got home from a night out with a couple of old co-workers I sat and thought to myself about how fast my life was changing and how I had no control over it, but I have to the conclusion that I won’t obsess over this anymore and i’ll let God take flight in my life. I can honestly say he has changed things for better, even though its not as fast as I want but I do see changes from when I was prayerless.
God’s love is real, he his of a kind of heart and in whatever you speak with him, he his willing and able to answer.
I think about you
In the morning
Hoping that you
Find me charming
I think about you
In the afternoon
Hoping that I
Can meet you soon
I think about you
In the evening
Hoping that I
Can see you smiling
I think about you
In the middle of the night
Hoping that you
Understand my plight
I just can’t stop
Thinking about you
I just hope one day
You end up liking me too
I envy you kids with responsible fathers, the kids with fathers who care, the kids whose fathers are actually there. They provide you with everything, now I don’t mean no food or clothing or shelter. I mean words of wisdom, words of comfort, I mean constantly showing support with everything you do. Man I don’t need no money from my father but I most definitely could use his presence, I know I lack guidance which has led to me so much ruin, I wish he would just call me sometime and talk to me about life but I only have those talks with a couple of misguided young men like myself. I say misguided because we all got the same father issues, our fathers were more off Sperm-Donors than actual parents, its like these dudes never wanted us so why did you help conceive us? My mother was everything and more for me but its been almost 2years since she’s been gone and ever since then my life has been in shambles. I thought after she passed maybe her sperm donor will step up but just like every other deadbeat this man ain’t do nothing. I’m not going to bash him because I see some of myself in him but this is just a reminder to myself that I have to be a better man and father than he ever was and is.