Today makes it exactly 2 years that I’ve been anti-depressants, Man it hasn’t been easy because the side effects have been crazy but I’m elated that I started taking them but sadly I’m not right without them. I remember slashing myself with a blade about 3 years ago because I was so tired and wanted to end it all. I’m happy I met some amazing people who pushed to go get help and I must say ever since I started making my meds I’ve been feeling much better but mentally that process has been very difficult. There have been days I cried for about 6 hours and some days I’m so happy and filled with joy you’d think I was high. I remember telling some of my ‘friends &a family ‘that I was depressed and they’d try to convince me that it was all in my head, I almost believed but thanks to this lovely lady named Liz Sawyer, I forced myself to get help and boy I’m happy I did. I’m not close to where I want to be but I can say compared to this date 2 years ago I am much better, I am glad to be where I am right now and I can only hope I continue to make forward progress, it’s still a long ass road but I’m happy with where I am and extremely excited for what is ahead.
There’s this girl I’ve never met,It’s very hard to explain.
I don’t really even know her,
But I do think about her quite often.
I’ve never even heard her voice,
But it plays on my mind very often .
I’ve never even heard her laugh,
But I’ve know she has an healing smile.
I’ve never actually hugged her,
Or ran my fingers through her hair.
I’ve never gazed into her eyes,
Or watched her laying there,
But I know I think about her.
I wonder why,
I can only imagine what kind of impact that’s she’s had on me, evening without knowing.
We can barely have a conversation,
Because every time we talk it’s like we’re at war.
I guess I don’t Know her at all, so it makes sense
But I often think about her so it’s kind of confusing.
I am hopeful that one day, just one day,
I hope we can be amazing friends,
And I hope that our friendship,
Will never end.