“Land Of The Free”

Slowly, we’re a all being wiped out,

We’re not wanted,

They want to see us rage,

They want to see us fight back, so they can have a reason to slaughter us.
This isn’t our country and they want us to know that,

They brought us here at their own will, why? 

Just to use us and that they’re done they just want to dispose us,

Everyday another of us is killed, Every hour another of us is thrown jailed and lost in the system so we can fail.
We can shout and protest, but nothing has changed,

We can fight back but they have more weapons than us, 

They argue we kill ourselves but who gives us the weapons,

All we want is equality and peace,

All we want is to be accepted,

All we want it to be free in the “Land of the Free”

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Wishing we never met..

Sitting here late at night,

Looking at this burning cigarette, as I think of everything I regret, starring at her face, wishing we never met,

What exactly have I done? Why did I ever get myself involved in the first place ? How did the manage to get this frozen heart to melt?

Now, I’m questioning myself like why didn’t you know better? Or if you’ve known better why didn’t you do better?

At this moment I can’t even trust myself or my own judgement, I can’t even trust my own words. I keep falling in out of trust and trying to rekindle lust in the name of love. I keep trying to burn a fire that was never lit. All this while I kept thinking I was the one who was unfit, I kept thinking maybe I was the one at fault not realizing you were just trying to pass time, you were just trying to heal your last hurt and I happened to be the most ready victim.

Hey, I hope you’re happy now. You’ve torn me into pieces and spit me out like I was worth nothing.

I hope you get what you deserve, I hope life doesn’t hit you as hard .

It was 2am.

It’s 2am and I’m excited about visiting NYC again, even though it’s been only a month since I left but there’s an even bigger thought of what have I learnt since moving and has anything good come out me moving so far, and the answer is Yes. For the first time this year I could actually say I’m building a savings account and for the first time in 2 years I could finally say I live in a home. Now this statement doesn’t mean I’ve been homeless for two years which at some point in 2013 I was but it was more about the fact that wherever I laid my head in the past two years didn’t feel like but since I’ve been here in Raleigh, the joys of living with family has given me a “homely” feeling; which I dearly appreciate.

Now over the past month even with the joy of being around family, everyday has been a constant struggle because I feel very much out of place. The way people here think is different, the lifestyle here is different and it could be both a positive and a negative but I’ve come to the realization that I prefer the fast pace hustle and bustle craziness that NYC has to offer, like I love it so much I started to look for jobs in NYC again but I had to talk to myself and do some thinking and have come to realize that I am here for a purpose. I am here to better myself. I am here to spend some much needed time with family, I am here to find financial stability, I am here to find peace, I am here to find sanity and most of all I am here to find happiness and happiness does not come in one day, or one week or one month there’s no time limit to finding happiness so I will take my time and make the best out of this opportunity and create my own happiness and create my own financial stability and create my own Brand and also begin my search to a life time of gratification.

Yemi Osibogun

Beautiful Black Woman, I Worship Thee

Beautiful Black Woman, thank you for adding some color to this world. Beautiful Black Woman thank you being Queen of the earth & Queen of my heart.

Beautiful Black Woman you are powerful, you are fierce, you are the realest of them all.

Beautiful Black woman of all the earths beauty yours is the purest form, the way your skin glows in the light, the way your body is perfectly shaped.

Beautiful Black woman, how I wish society appreciated for what you are, or even more I wish you appreciated the beauty that is your skin and realizing those lightening creams and anything to change your skin only does damage to the beautiful raw skin Yahweh blessed you with.

Beautiful Black Woman, black men everywhere worship the, because you birth us, raised us, sheltered us made us realize that we are kings and nothing could take us down.

Beautiful Black Woman you are a Goddess because in your we can forever trust because you have always delivered.

Beautiful Black Woman; the world is intimated by your beauty and are threatened by your wisdom which is why they hate you so much.

Beautiful Black Woman nothing in life will ever take you away from us and that is the earth will forever remain yours and you will forever remain queen.

Beautiful Black Woman I love you, appreciate you, I cherish you. For you are my healer and my joy.

And to my special Beautiful Brown Skin Woman who’s beauty left me in awe and the way she walked with confidence like had no flaw, you have captivated my heart and my soul and showed me that Brown Skin are the world’s biggest treasure and that’s why they’ve been Gold this whole time.

Beautiful Brown Baby

I can’t seem to imagine why anyone will feel like this is a compliment but if anyone ever called my baby that i’d be going crazy. I feel like most Caucasian think its perfectly fine to use this as a compliment but its not fine at all, like how will you feel if I called your white baby a “a beautiful milky baby” or a “beautiful creamy baby” I’m sure i’d get a weird stare or like a straight up ‘what the fuck” face . I honestly feel like race should never be brought up in a compliment because that is also a form of racism but this is just my opinion and it varies for everyone. Another compliment that bothers is ‘You’re really cute for a black girl” or “you have really nice hair for a black person”. Like this is in no form a compliment, Its racist and disrespectful. I don’t know who comes up with shit like this but I have a bigger problem with people who use it, I think anyone with any sense at all would understand that this is no form a compliment.

Please note that these are all my opinions but its different for everyone, but I’m sure every black person will agree with me on this,

I experienced the Vow Of Silence but I can’t keep quiet

Today I discovered the beauty that was New York Public Library of black culture in Harlem. But that’s not what I’m here to talk about,I’m here to talk about film that left me filled with joy and emotions. I remember the first time I saw Brokeback Mountain, it was a powerful movie, but the experience I got from the Vow Of Silence was very similar yet abundantly different. This was a beautifully written film about Two Queers of Color in love, the title is brought to life by a beautiful young lady by the name Jade (Tattiana Aqeel) who tries to win back the love of Isis (Shayna last name I can’t remember) her ex lover. What makes this film so special and extremely interesting is the fact that Jade (the protagonist) takes a Vow of Silence to win back Isis, and through out the 28 minute film you are able to see raw emotion displayed by the cast, and this is something that is missing in today’s film industry.

Vow of Silence is a music driven film, that showcases the beauty and talent queer women of color. Jade’s inability to speak helps communicates her pain, weakness, power and joy through music.

This beautiful movie was written and directed by the super talented: Be Steadwell

to learn more about this film visit http://www.besteadwell.com/#!vow-of-silence/c1osv

Black History Month is a sham.

Of course it has to be the shortest month of the year..Why are people of color celebrating this sham? Who came up with this shit? I could give a rats ass about Black History month. This is just another way of the government limiting us, black history month my ass. It might as well be let’s make these niggers feel like they have something month. Black history is made everyday, every day another black kid is born its black history, everyday black kids go to school black history is made, any day black kids graduate black history is made, any day another black kid becomes a cop, a lawyer, an artist, a CEO , an entrepreneur. Black history is made. Black history month, nah bro its black history year, black history century, black history millennium.

Just another misguided youth.

I envy you kids with responsible fathers, the kids with fathers who care, the kids whose fathers are actually there. They provide you with everything, now I don’t mean no food or clothing or shelter. I mean words of wisdom, words of comfort, I mean constantly showing support with everything you do. Man I don’t need no money from my father but I most definitely could use his presence, I know I lack guidance which has led to me so much ruin, I wish he would just call me sometime and talk to me about life but I only have those talks with a couple of misguided young men like myself. I say misguided because we all got the same father issues, our fathers were more off Sperm-Donors than actual parents, its like these dudes never wanted us so why did you help conceive us? My mother was everything and more for me but its been almost 2years since she’s been gone and ever since then my life has been in shambles. I thought after she passed maybe her sperm donor will step up but just like every other deadbeat this man ain’t do nothing. I’m not going to bash him because I see some of myself in him but this is just a reminder to myself that I have to be a better man and father than he ever was and is.

Dear Black America,

Does anyone realize what they have done to us?
They have systematically done a great of separating the Black Community. They take the lives of black men and take us out of our homes by throwing us in Jail, they constantly sexualize African American females and also paint them as the national symbol for single mothers their by making it seem like a norm for the next generation of Young Black Women. They provide them with the adequate support making sure they have the, “I can do it all by myself mentality which leads Broken homes. This is what drives some black men to date women of other races; there by they are successful in splitting us up once again. They have found a way to make us hate each other by classifying “The Light Skin vs Dark Skin”. You think we elected a black president? NO, WE DIDN’T. He was handed to us so it will create more division and so we can be split into two based on the decisions he makes. Listen here people, we have to be wise, we have to stand together before we’re broken apart.